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| Friday, July 14th, 2006 | | 11:03 pm |
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New news
Hey all!! Ha ha ha ^-^. Sorry I haven't updated in a while and all. Hm. News...........news..........I suppose, only news I really have is: 1. I went to Islands of Adventure with a few friends 2. Saw "Pirate of the-" With Raychel, Alex, Brit, and Ben 3. Got a new 'How to draw' book. I will show you some of my drawings! 4. Out of Summer school. (I MISS YOU ROTC AND DRIVERS ED!!! >.<) 5. Have new found things that I will not speak of in public. 6. Annnnddddd..........I got a job at Publix! 7. I am going to North Carolina. I really can't think of much more, though I am sure there is. In my free time, as I said, I have been drawing, I have been reading too, (Curse you summer reading!!), I also have been making slide show things. (Which I will post up as well.) Pictures: 1) This is the first picture I drew. It was some chick I got from a thing. Don't ask -_-. I kinda messed her ears up. *Sigh* But I am getting there! (I still say it is nice for a first picture done.) http://i82.photobucket.com/albums/j278/LouisdePointeduLac/FOXY2.jpg2) Some cat chick I randomdly drew. She could have come out alot better too -_- http://i82.photobucket.com/albums/j278/LouisdePointeduLac/CatGirl1.jpg3) My chick with a sword. BE AFRIAD!! http://i82.photobucket.com/albums/j278/LouisdePointeduLac/Swordchick.jpg4) Don't ask about this one much. Kinda the way I feel, but as I said, don't ask. The story is too long -_-. http://i82.photobucket.com/albums/j278/LouisdePointeduLac/HeartBreak.jpgAnnnndddd, as I promised (Ok, so I didn't really promise anything, but O WELL!) the slide shows!! I have one more to do (Of Driver's Ed calss) But other than that, these 2 are done: My Friends!! Invalid video URL. Fun Times!! ^-^ Invalid video URL. Current Mood:  amused | | Tuesday, June 6th, 2006 | | 10:13 am |
Horror
Something really scared me on Saturday night. This would be my most up-to-date thing I can think about right now. Buttt...... I was at my mom's house, babysitting for her, and I was on the computer talking to Sal, Mary, and Soda. Maybe Allison too........hm. But I was talking to some friends. My two little sisters were in my other brother's room watching t.v and sleeping. I was just sitting there. But then I heard a noise come from the back porch. Now, I will try and describe this so you might picture it. I was sitting at a desk with a laptop on it, and about 5 feet to my right was a glass sliding door, which led out into the back porch. The back porch has alot of junk in it. So, I just look to my right, and I see something moving, so I look to the back porch. Now, since there was a dim light on in the house, I saw mostly black, but I noticed something moving. I tryed to focus my eyes better, but then I saw this big tan thing. Then I relised, it was a someone! It was some adult man. He was holding a beer bottle in his hand, and he was stupidly looking at me. I just looked back at him. All I could think was "O my gosh......that sliding door is not locked........." But the man didn't know it wasn't locked. He was sitting in a chair on the porch, but then he got up and said "Ok, I will leave." (Mind you, I had not said anything this whole time.) and he left. That scared me so bad. I was afraid he was going to come back and rob the house. Because, understand, he only saw me. That was it. So he could think I was the only one in the house. So, I went to my sisters and told them to stay in the room and lock the door and to not open it to anyone but mom or I. I went back out to call my mom, but I couldn't. I relised, earlyer when she told me her number, she left out a digit. So I couldn't call her. I was about to call my father, when she called. I was actualy crying by this time, I was just really scared. Don't ask me why, but I just really was. I was afraid the man would come back and hurt my sisters. I would have felt so bad if that happened....... But I told my mom what happened, and she called the cops and came home. In the long run, the cops came, they didn't find him, and I went back to my fathers house. I didn't get to sleep till about 3:00 on Sunday morning, I was still kinda shaky. Fun fun! -_- All I know is I am not baby sitting at my mom's house anymore. I am lucky nothing bad happened, that the man didn't try to break into the house and rob it. All he needed was a gun, and he would have been set. | | Sunday, May 28th, 2006 | | 10:47 pm |
Fun fun fun!
Hey everyone! Wow, that is kinda funny. Read my Subject and then my first sentence, IT RYMES! Sorry, I am in a odd mood right now. I am sorry I have not up-dated in a while. I have been doing things. Such as...... 1. I went to Disney with a bunch of friends Friday. That was oddles of fun. We all hung out, went on rides, got ice cream, fooled around. It was all good. We have all decided we are going to make it a yearly thing, so next year we will all go back too! W00tness! 2. I went horseback riding on Saturday morning. I do it every Saturday morning. That is always fun. The only bad thing is, my horse (Bru-ha) is a gorgouse fiend and she knows it -_-. The spoiled girl. But she is a fun horse to ride (She is a x-race horse. WOO!). My only problem with her is, she doesn't like jumps. I am working on that with her.........SHE WILL BE BROKEN! 3. I went to a friends party Saturday night. That, also, was oddles of fun. We all basicly chilled there, sat around and talking, we played truth or dare. I got dared to stand on my head (which I couldn't do so one of my friends held my feet) and sing twinkle twinkle little star. I got half way through the song before the blood rushed to my head and had to stop. But I got to dare people and stuff! It was fun! Though I did get asked 'are you single?' by two different guys. It was cute! ^-^ 4. I sat around today....... Ya, ending of the weekend on Sunday, to sit around and do NOTHING! But it was ok, I just napped really. Fun fun fun! | | Thursday, May 4th, 2006 | | 11:11 pm |
W00t! I just got back from a great Chorus performance! Geeze, I am a chorus freak. Anyways, it was very sad because all the Seniors were basicly saying good bye, and even though I am not one, I was very sad. I thinking 'When I am one, I am going to be crying so hard I wont even be able to sing.' I honestly hope that wont happen, but then again it might. School is going by so fast, and I wished it could last for so much longer that it does. I am going to miss all my friends and teachers and classes and plays and concerts and going to State and etc etc................ I WANT TO STAY A TEENAGER FOR EVER!!!!!!!!!!! (Note: Not a kid, though I have the mentality of one.) By the way: I loved the chorus performance to night but, no offense or anything but, but some of those people could NOT SING! I felt really bad for them. But that is me. I have high standards. *Shrugs* Current Mood:  bouncy | | Wednesday, May 3rd, 2006 | | 6:13 am |
Quiz!
Well, we actualy got our scores on State. We got excellent! Ew! Second best! *Frown* I wanted first. But then again, the place we sang at wasn't very good. It wasn't very................'alive' as my chorus teacher said, there was no echo. I got board and took some quizes!! ________________________________________ _______________________
What Does Your Heart Desire? {Amazing Anime Pictures}
Freedom
Deep down, you are a caged bird who just wants to break free.You feel trapped and weighted down. Gazing up at the sky, you dream of joining the birds as they fly away What is keeping youtrapped? You have the desire and the will power, don't let anythingstop you. Just spread your wings and fly away.
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What Emotion Shines In Your Eyes? {Beautiful Anime Pictures}
HopeHope shines in your eyes. Life might get tough at times, but you always can find a reason to hold on. You believe, even when it seems morning will never come, there is an end to the darkness. Keep your fire burning bright, for it inspires othersto never give up.Quote: "Don't loose hope. Promise me, no matter how bad things get you, won't let go..."
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What is your supernatural power?(anime pics.)(9 results)
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What Is Your Role In A Relationship? (Male and Female, detailed results with Anime Pics!)
 You are SubmissiveYou are one of those people who is prepared to just sit in the background of things, listening but not participating. Often people know your face but not your name, which is a shame because you have a lot of love and devotion to give. You struggle with relationships sometimes because you don't always know how to be around people. Though you may be academically incredibly intelligent, you have trouble thinking for yourself. You need someone to tell you exactly what they want, as hints and subtleties tend to go straight over your head. When you find the one for you, you are entirely dedicated to them. You put them on a pedestal and worship them from afar, often not acting on your feelings. If you are lucky enough to have someone come over and tell you that they want to be with you, then you are likely to stay with them forever. Most compatible with: The Controlling The Controlling love to boss people around, and would make it painfully clear what they want you to do. They like having someone to click their fingers at, so you are a match made in heaven. They aren't going to give you subtle hints that you will miss, they will just tell you exactly what they want, when they want it, and how. They will never elevate you from you position in the shadows (which suits you just fine!) instead using you to elevate themselves. Some people wouldn't stand for this but as you want nothing more than to see your partner happy, you will be perfectly content with this lot. Least compatible with: The Hopeless Romantic Much like you, the Hopeless Romantic wants to worship someone, but whereas you like giving all that attention, you certainly don't like receiving it. You aren't comfortable with being in the spotlight, and the Romantic won't just let you sit in their shadow where you like to be. Your song is: Eric's Song, 12 Stones  Take this quiz!
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What angel represents you? (Breathtaking pics, and long results.)
You are the pleasing/giving angel! You strive to please people and you love to make people happy by giving them gifts. Your a very sweet, giving angel, a lot of people like you! You love people in the world as well as creatures that live in it. Don't let people take advantage of you and you kind ways. Color: Green and white. Flower: Buttercups. Sweets: Ice cream Animal: mice Number: 2 Element: Earth
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Current Mood:  dorky | | Monday, May 1st, 2006 | | 9:56 pm |
Bam! Single!
Well, looks like I left you all hanging. Sorry, loves. But anyways................well, I am officially single! I am actually happy about it too. Though confused as well. Why, you might ask? I will tell you what happened! Well, on the week of the play, I was so stressed, though it was a good stress (If there is even such a thing) and I was very happy about the play. Buutttt, about the boyfriend, I had been thinking more about it. I suddenly realized, if Randy ever broke up with me, I would never even shed a tear. I didn’t even really like him hugging me most of the time. So, honestly, I guess I never really liked him. I suppose I tried, I tried really hard to like him, but it just never really worked. So I broke up with him on Tuesday, I wasn’t waiting till Friday. I figured, since I had the courage popped up then, why not do it now? So I did. But the odd thing was that he went out with his ex girl friend, the one he was going out with before me, again. So I figured: 1. He is trying to get me jealous 2. It is a ‘getting over’ type thing 3. He lied to me when he said he didn’t like her. O well *Shrug* It doesn’t matter anyways. But something does matter. I am so lucky I am even here sitting at the computer right now. I was almost hit by some stupid high school driver in his car. I was getting out of my stepmother’s mini-van on Saturday morning, and I turned around to cross the street and some stupiod kid swirved around so fast that he flew right in front of me and he was so close my wrist hit his rear-view mirror. I was pretty shaken up. I walked to school after that, and my stepmother kept telling me how lucky I was I was not a second earlier or him a second later because I would be lucky if I ended up in the hospital. *Sigh of relief* That is good. But other than that, I have been doing pretty good. I went to State today for Chorus. I hope we get Supiors, that is the highest score you can get. I am crossing my fingers!! Current Mood:  accomplished | | Sunday, April 16th, 2006 | | 9:33 pm |
Annndddd I almost forgot:  Love Stat! ^-^. I did not get enough time this weekend to make my own banner, so I just used one of the ones someone made. Current Mood: Happy | | 4:33 pm |
Desciding
Well, I am sorry I have not updated in awhile. Nothing really dramatic has happened. But right now I am sun burnt, my back hurts because I slept on it wrong, my butt is sore from tubing on my dad's boat (hints to the reason I am also sun burnt), my puppy is chewing on my shoe, a cat purring on my lap, and need to figure out my thoughts about my boyfriend and I. Sounds like fun, non? But, I have been thinking alot today, and I think I am going to breakup with him. Now, I don't mean I am going to breakup with him today, but very soon. I give him about another week, but I just feel scared to do it too. I don't want to hurt him. but I just really think I don't like him like that. I have come to relize I am not a very.............physical person and I don't really enjoy many of the things we do. Plus, I have not even kissed him and we have been going out for about a month and two weeks. I just don't want to. I don't feel right or comftorable with it. So I think I am going to breakup with him. Now, understand, this hurts me too. i care alot about him. but I just don't think I like him like that. He is sweet and all, but just..............not my 'type' I guess. (Though I don't even know what my own type is. I just know he isn't it.) I am going to be so stressed out this next coming week because of club meetings, play meetings, times the play is going to be. O, I forgot to tell everyone, I am going to be a Usher for the play my school is doing 'Chicago'. I am very happy about it, though I have to dress like a slut. I am going to be very busy and if I still don't think I can do this by Friday, I am going to dump him the next time I see him. Which will probably be Monday. I just hope he wont be hurt too much. *Sigh* I will try and update you all again when I find out what will happen. Thanks. Current Mood:  confused | | Saturday, April 8th, 2006 | | 10:29 pm |
In dedication to my dog:Shadow
This is Shadow when she was a puppy. I found these pictures and actualy laughed. She was a strange puppy. We never knew why she would sit in a ice cooler. (If you look close enough you see there is ice in it.)  Current Mood: Happy | | Friday, March 31st, 2006 | | 5:27 pm |
Sadness and Depression……………..
Sadness and Depression…………….. How could such a thing happen? As I sit here today, in my very own class room, watching the morning news, prom day is approaching. It is to be on this Saturday. To show the importance of not drinking or doing drugs there or before hand, they showed a video. Now, I do not normally pay attention to such things, but this really touched me. I almost felt like crying. They showed the video as cars were rolled over, crashed, split in half (Literally), blown up, on fire, ect ect. It was devastating to think that is happens every year, just because some kids want to have fun one night and drink at prom. That is perhaps one of the biggest mistakes. Why would someone do that? Yet to think, that there are some kids today that were not in school and will bring drinks at prom tomorrow, that there are students in school now, that weren't even watching the news, and will bring them, that there are even students that were watching the video that will bring them. It is hurtful to know that a lot of students died, yet that never ment for it. That they were only having fun, that they never would have thought there car would spin out of control, that there lives would be changed forever, that they could never move there whole left side; or right side; of there body because they got in a bad enough crash. Some of the kid’s friends that lived from the car crashes were crying as they spoke and were saying how they were only having fun, that that was never suppose to happen. Well it did. Some of the lives that were taken weren’t even of those that were drinking. They died because of others who were drinking and crashed into them. It was more devastating when the teacher came back on the news and said that static’s showed that one teenager dies everyday. Everyday! Weather it is on the way to school, or just driving down the road, or even going home from work one day. That is horrible and sad truth. But, this one night, prom night, when it is suppose to be a fun and happy night, to know that something bad will happen, is a horrible feeling. I know that there are some kids that don’t care, that they will still drink anyways, and then later on there friends will morn for them because they crashed into a truck or flipped off the side of the rode, or even sped off a hill into a ditch. But the video really touched me. I have never drunken before, but that movie would have been enough to make me quite if I did. To be shown the truth of what happens everyday, that was truth enough for me. So, as I am sure this message has been spread before, please. I beg you. Don’t drink and drive. If you’re a teenager, an adult, senior, any age. Don’t drink and drive. You have no idea how much it hurts those around you. Thank you Current Mood:  thoughtful | | Saturday, March 11th, 2006 | | 9:47 pm |
Animals!!!
I have my own pets now! I can't have any realy pets, so I went crazy with these. They are so cute! (To play with them you have to click them.) Percy  Tuck  Snow Bell  Eric  Aqua  Teena  Quackers (Creative ain't it?)  Sonic  Pinky  Captian Fluffel Stuff  Widow  Scamper  Fang  I LOVE MY PETS!!! (They are so much fun to play with! I am sure they get lonly, so click to play with them! They make noises too.) Current Mood:  enthralled | | Thursday, February 23rd, 2006 | | 9:11 am |
Hello
Well, as I sit here now typing, a new student was lost on Monday. The teenager was found in his room, very stressed, though he passed away not to long after he was found. Now, when this was announced a few students, including myself, were quite shocked. We all thought it was the guy we once knew before. Though, a few minutes later, they showed his picture and it turned out we didn't even know him. But it was those few seconds that he thought we did that counted. Perhaps it was because no one liked him. But the shock when we all thought he was dead....... But now that I look on it, what if it had been one of my friends? What if it had been one of my best friends? What would I have done without them? With the fact of knowing that I would never see them again, or even get to say goodbye? I think that would be more than I could bear to handle. I have come to realize a truth that I have been trying to ignore for the past few years, though it has come and hit head-on on in the face. Will I know all my friends when I am 20? Will I still be friends with all of them? Even know, my best friend said she was; or might; move, and yet she seemed so happy about it. Perhaps I mean that little to people? I know that without friends, I don't care what anyone says, I could not make it in the world on my own. Plus, I have never had anyone of my own, so then why consider such a thing? *Sigh* I am just very confused right now. I don't know either to harden my heart, or at least try, or just give up. Though I still bear that pain that I know I need my friends very badly, more than I care to share on most occasions, and now that I think they might go away I am horrified. I am a very greedy person when it comes to friends, though I do know I have friends I could go one living if I never saw them tomorrow. But I also have friends I don't know what I would do without. I am in such a confusion right now it is so hard to figure out. I should hope I can write back soon with good news. Current Mood: Sadness/thoughful | | Tuesday, February 14th, 2006 | | 8:31 pm |
Valentines day..............
*Sigh* Hi everyone! I know I have not updated this in a ahwile, it is mostly because nothing big has happened to me, though I think I want to talk about this more than anything...... Valentines day I know I feel this way now, and I know that later on down the road I will think I am so stupioed, but right now I just feel so alone. Valentines day is just another reminder for me at how alone I am. I have never had anyone I have loved, and honestly, I think I am in love with.... Love *Laughes* Sounds odd, doesn't it? I just think I am in love with the consept of finding the one that you have been waiting your whole life for, and I just can't wait. *Smiles* I know I sound like a hopeless teenager, but that is how I feel now and I enjoy seeing everyone together and all, I just feel alone. never even getting to even try. How sad indeed. Current Mood:  sad | | Monday, February 6th, 2006 | | 8:31 pm |
The biggest idiot in the word.............
Well, while I am typing here, my head hurts a lot. Why, you might ask? Because I just did the most idiotic thing you could ever think of. I was doing dishes at the counter, fine, but then I felt a sneeze come on. Last minute, I grabbed for a paper towel, and bent over forward and sneezed. Now, when I did this, I did not back away from the counter. So, sure enough, I ended up with a large cut along my forhead because I hit my head on the edge of the counter. My stepmother runs over scared I had knocked myself out. Then I most the paper towel and I am laughing at my own stupiedness. I felt dizzy for a while and now I am fine. Great, I am going to have to go to school like this. Aw man................ Current Mood:  blah | | Monday, January 23rd, 2006 | | 5:42 pm |
To my best friend. May the years be never ending............
(Other letter. I am to lazy to edit anything though.) Dear Brittany, *Sigh* Well, honestly, I don't even know what I could say to you. I feel like I have much more to say than I could speak so I figured I would to try tell you in words by sending you this. Honestly, in 6th grade, and as I have told you, if I looked at myself now I never would have thought I would be best friends with you, nor even know you that well. But now, I am glad I am. As I also said, in 6th grade I was very desperate for a good friend and don't believe I found one until I became yours. I love you alot and I never thought you would ever be any friend of mine, needless to say my best. But I suppose everyone just needs someone to lean on so when my skys get dark and cloudy I turn and talk to you. Honestly, we joke about this and you think you need to pay me back for all this I have done for you and Ben, but you don't. In fact, I am in your debt. Your being my friend has ment more to me than words could ever express and I would die if something ever happened to you. Don't listen to what Raychel, or Jenna, or Jenna's mom, anyone, or even yourself when they say you are not a good friend. Because you are, you are my best friend. If you had not been friend, I don't know what I would have done through 8th grade or now. You are some one I can serously talk to and you can always talk to me. I believe we will be friends forever, or atleast a very long time. I thought I would never see you again when 8th grade was other but I think we have been closer than ever. I think that you are a great best friend and the only one I have ever told many things to, willingly. I can tell you anything and you will not cridisize me or scold me or yell at me. You just....................understand. I wish more people in the world where like you. If there was, there would be no suicides, nor would there be any lonely people on earth. Everyone would have a friend. I honestly don't want you to think much of what happened to me when Tommy did that to me. That is my problem, not yours. I can say I do not like Tommy for what he did and since he did that there is always, now, something in the back of my mind that is always wary of anyone and everyone, execpt for my closest friends. Those are not the only time this has happened to me, in effect to what Tommy did to me, and it wont be the last and I understand that. I have to live it down, even though how hard it is. But I am glad I have a great friend like you that I can trust and lean on when ever I need help. You have never done anything wrong to me, so don't think you have. So I am definetly getting over it, and I think a big thanks goes to you because of it. I have mental scars, but who doesn't? They are all healing, just slowly, and the prossess quickens with the better friends you have and if I where to die tomarow I would die a happy person knowing I have been able to be your friend and you have touch me more than words will describe. Yet you are probably thinking 'Does she have no life? She has nothing better to do than type to me!'. That is proabably true, both parts, but I do it because you are my best friend and, quick frankly, I don't know what I would do without you. I think I should really be counting my luckey stars to have you as a friend. God seems to be really watching over me these years I need it the most.................................... ...... Love always and forever, Amanda (One more) Dear Brit, I could not exactly get into to deep before, I had to go to school, but I have plenty of time now! So you get to sit here and read all of this weather you like it or not! ^-^. *Sigh* I understand too well what you go through and it is because I am good at understanding people, which is one of those things I excel at and you do too! I am glad, I can tell you anything. Even my most deepest darkest secerts only you know. Friends are fun but real friends last forever and I know, not think, that is what we have. I know it is sad how people can decieve you and mistreat you and hurt you without even knowing but what we have is something special and to be cherished through out the years. I love you so much I honestly could not say, though you do know. You are my best friend I have ever had and I can only imagin the fun and stupioed things we would have done in elementry school together if we had known each other then as well *Laugh*. But besides that, we are in each other's debt. No one is higher in it and no one is lower. I know you disagree but I agree with this. I believe that through thick and thin I could call you and tell you anything. I honestly was really hurt yesterday after I talked with my father and told him what was bothering me and lo and behold! You called at the EXACT moment we where done! Exact moment! Now I think that is something special right their! ^-^. So, to put it in other words, you are the best friend I have ever had or ever will. Love always and forever, Amanda/ Lou/ *Grumbles* Manda Panda......... Current Mood:  envious | | Saturday, January 21st, 2006 | | 7:13 pm |
A Hurt Soul..................
*Sigh* Well, this past Saturday I found out some horrible news. I found out that my dog had died. It lived at my mothers house and I barley got to ever see her, but I loved her none-the-less. She was the only pet I had because, at my father’s house, my little brother has asma and we cannot get a pet. So she was very dear to me, but on Saturday my mother called me and told me she died. She never said how, but she said she did. I cried for almost two hours, and was quite upset this whole week. But, even worse, I found out on Thursday how she died. My mother’s friend had let her out of the house and, on her walk; some stupid kids beat her with a baseball bat and broke her back. She was crying and yelping when she got home and my mother took her to the vets and, with a shot that was suppose to help the pain, she died instead. This, I suppose, would be in animal cruelty too. But what shocks me the most is how someone could do that. I have heard about things like that, but never thought it would happen to, especially, my pet. She was a loving dog and would never hurt a flea, but now she is gone and all because of some stupid kids I never even got to say goodbye............... I have been crying at random times all this week just because I can’t stop thinking about her and now it really hurts, and I miss her so much........... Current Mood: lonely | | Friday, January 13th, 2006 | | 10:12 am |
Confused
I am kind of new to doing this, because even though I have had his account for awhile this is actually the first time I have come to check on it. This is more complicated than it looks. I should hope to figure this out soon enough........... Current Mood: confused | | Friday, November 4th, 2005 | | 7:56 pm |
Bonsoir
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